Do we choose our role models or do our role models choose us?
Is there something in our sub-conscious mind that seeks out a certain kind of person? Is it already predetermined that we are going to be a specific type of person or are our behaviours and connections learned early on?
Do we already know who we are on a subconscious level, we just don’t “know” it yet?
There are obviously reasons why we are drawn to specific people.
The way they dress, or portray themselves, their jewellery, mannerisms, make-up. Something about them triggers something in you and you decide that you like them. You love what they are about, what they stand for and you want to adopt part of their lifestyle or personality, their morals. Sometimes without even knowing it.
I’m not entirely sure who was the first person I admired on television, in real life it was my Mum, but celebrity wise it was probably someone on MTV.
However the first person I do remember was this crazy lady…
This is ‘Brenda Wilson’ from the British TV series ‘Watching‘ (1987-1993). I thought she was wonderful. Just look at those ear-rings!
She was definitely different and I suppose that was what I liked about her. I know my parents liked her too, so some of the influence could have come from them.
As I got older and started thinking for myself I was still drawn to these people who were “different”. The people who might be classed as ‘odd’ or ‘weird’.
Am I drawn to them because I want to be like them or am I already like them I just haven’t realised it yet?
I don’t think that being the ‘weird’ one is something we decide we want to be, it’s just something you are. I was never one to conform, I didn’t dress like everyone else, I didn’t follow trends. If I liked something I’d wear it, or do it. If I didn’t like it then that was my own choice.
Throughout my childhood, in to my teens and even now, my role models were all strong, independent women who didn’t necessarily fit in with the rest of the crowd. They were portrayed as an outcast or they had something that might have held them back, an issue in their life at some point which could have given them good cause to just give up, but they didn’t.
We all need these in our lives, these women were part of my upbringing, they helped to shape me in to who I am today. Not just my individuality or my quirky dress sense but my beliefs, my morals, even my friends.
I have always been strong and independent, I’m capable of making my own decisions. I have always chosen paths that I felt were right and I knew would make me happy eventually.
It hasn’t always been easy but that’s where the strength comes in. You hold it together, knowing full well that you will come out the other side even stronger and more amazing than you are now.
I like to think that my strength and my individuality has always been my own. It was always there as a tiny speck, a little flicker in the back of my mind and I chose these people and my routes through life as a way to fine tune myself.
And I have fine tuned myself in to awesome 😉 ∞♥
Don’t ever let anyone make you think you’re not good enough.
Follow your dreams right now! Don’t wait until tomorrow,
next week, next year. Stop planning, start doing 🙂
Be happy and keep smiling 😀