Okay listen up everyone, I may have made some sort of awesome scientific breakthrough…
I have severe anxiety problems.
I’m paranoid, stupid things scare me or make me panic, such as zombies, the dark, conversations I had 12 years ago, conversations I had 2 minutes ago, giving off the wrong impression, giving the right impression at the wrong time, worrying about missed opportunities, what the future might now hold. Pretty much everything really.
So, my life is going along, dealing with anxiety in the only way I know; deep breaths, meditate, exercise (ha), deal with it.
I’m blogging and writing, this is my life now and I love it. I’m attending many events and enjoying all the things, dealing with the anxiety, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah.
My most recent event was the amazing, yet terrifying, Screamfest, (full write up tomorrow) I honestly cannot wait to publish my post about this, however today is all about my revelation.
I genuinely believe that being scared out of my mind has some way inadvertently “cured” my anxiety. I think maybe my anxiety levels were taken way beyond their limits and now they’ve just f**ed off.
I was expecting to be kept awake by nightmares all night, didn’t happen. I watched ‘The Autopsy of Jane Doe’ today, didn’t flinch an inch. I re-watched ‘It’, just for good measure, I only shuddered once at Pennywise’s despicable face.
I’m even considering watching an episode or two of ‘The Walking Dead’ or ‘American Horror Story’,… we’ll see how I feel tomorrow.
My point is my scared-ness and general anxiety has vanished, I feel quite liberated.
So my advice to you is get out there and do the scariest thing you can think of and you may well be cured of your anxieties. Or you’ll be a gibbering wreck and all hope will be lost but you can’t blame me because I warned you 😉
Don’t ever let anyone make you think you’re not good enough.
Follow your dreams right now! Don’t wait until tomorrow,
next week, next year. Stop planning, start doing 🙂
Be happy and keep smiling 🙂