If you’re going through hell…

  ‘If you’re going through hell my dear, just keep going’.* Do not stop to dwell on your surroundings. Your current hell is not where you belong, a beautiful paradise is waiting for you. And although the perfection that awaits will ultimately fade and your hell will rear its ugly head once more, just remember that each time you come out of the other side you have grown, changed and rebuilt a little bit more your soul. You have become stronger, in body, mind and spirit. These times will build you up into the most incredible person, equipped to deal … Continue reading If you’re going through hell…

My anxiety is not your anxiety

  and vice versa.   Don’t automatically assume that just because I’m able to do things that you can’t that your anxiety issues are worse than mine. You have zero idea how much effort it takes for me to do to things and how much it hurts to do things too. You should also not assume that I am capable of doing the things that you can, even if we are both hindered by similar anxieties. On top of my anxiety I have fibromyalgia and due to this I may have days where I sit in bed all day and … Continue reading My anxiety is not your anxiety

Sorry, I’m busy

  Sorry, I’m busy… What does that mean to you? If I say “I’m busy” when someone asks me if I’m free for something it can mean several different things. I’m busy translates as ‘I have other plans’, ‘I’m out’… I’m working I’m going to the cinema I’m out for the day I’m at the gym I’m walking Going for a run Shopping Meal with friends Date night Time with my son These are all valid ‘I’m busy’ reasons. How about… I’m binge watching Netflix all day I’m having a bath I’m laying in bed all day, reading I’m turning … Continue reading Sorry, I’m busy

Not your everyday ‘My Holiday’ post.

  I have just returned from another fantastic holiday with my Mum and my son, we’ve been away together quite a few times and we always have so much fun. I adore the relationship that we have, it’s not like a tolerance because we’re family, I genuinely love spending time with both of them. We always have a laugh, sometimes at each others expense, and there’s plenty of silliness, usually from my Mum and I, whilst Christopher stands there and shakes his head. We don’t get on 24/7 of course, there are disagreements to be had, we’re only human, but … Continue reading Not your everyday ‘My Holiday’ post.

“I believe you are blushing”…

…”Well yes probably and it’s most definitely taken a lot less than the naked form of Rose Dewitt Bukater”   When you feel embarrassed your body releases adrenalin as it gets ready for the natural fight or flight response. The redness that appears on your cheeks is due to the veins under your skin dilating, allowing more blood to flow through them. This is all very interesting sciencey stuff but the question is why? What purpose does blushing serve other than embarrassing us further? Well unfortunately I don’t know because it still baffles the boffins. I flush red at inappropriate … Continue reading “I believe you are blushing”…

How I handle my anxiety attacks.

      You don’t know exactly what the outcome will be. You just believe that your actions are going to be the cause of terrifying disaster. It’s a feeling of severe doom. A feeling that sends an icy chill down your spine and freezes your feet to the spot. The only emotion that you can muster is fear. Tears are burning your eyes, you can’t breathe, you have lost any means of a normal functioning body. Your hands feel ten times bigger than they are, leaving you unable to do anything, ultimately feeling useless. Your legs have become heavier … Continue reading How I handle my anxiety attacks.