Upbeat Lincoln Mental Health Awareness #UpbeatAwareness

  I have not received monies or products for this post.  Upbeat Lincoln was formed many years ago by a group of volunteers. It is now run on a voluntary basis by wonderful people such as Ollie Applewhite and Robert Glenton and many others. Together they have created a safe haven for people with mental health disorders, a place where you can meet people who know exactly what it felt like for you to pluck up the courage to make it there today. It is incredible what they have achieved in such a short time and I know they will … Continue reading Upbeat Lincoln Mental Health Awareness #UpbeatAwareness

Why I shared #metoo

    I battled with whether or not to post this because it’s a very personal thing to share with everyone. Before you think that you don’t want to read any further because I’m going to divulge details that you don’t want to know, I’m not, I’m not sharing my story, at least not today. I shared #metoo yesterday, along with thousands of other women across social media. This new # is for women to let people know that they have been the victim of sexual abuse or harassment. That is all, you’re not expected to say anything else, however … Continue reading Why I shared #metoo

I may have just cured my anxiety…

      Okay listen up everyone, I may have made some sort of awesome scientific breakthrough… I have severe anxiety problems. I’m paranoid, stupid things scare me or make me panic, such as zombies, the dark, conversations I had 12 years ago, conversations I had 2 minutes ago, giving off the wrong impression, giving the right impression at the wrong time, worrying about missed opportunities, what the future might now hold. Pretty much everything really. So, my life is going along, dealing with anxiety in the only way I know; deep breaths, meditate, exercise (ha), deal with it. I’m … Continue reading I may have just cured my anxiety…

How do you feel about that?

  I’m tired. You’re tired. We’re all allowed to be tired. I’ve got responsibilities and jobs to do and so have you. My tiredness is no more relevant than yours and vice versa. It’s not a competition. I can’t explain how my tiredness makes me feel or precisely how tired I am. Just in the same way you can’t explain yours to me. I read somewhere recently that some people are of the belief that if you haven’t had kids then you don’t really know ‘tired’. I can’t comment because I am constantly knackered and I have had a child for … Continue reading How do you feel about that?

Sometimes I don’t want to smile, I just want to cry..and that’s totally okay.

    ‘Be brave’ ‘Take it like a woman’ ‘You’re strong, you can do this’ ‘Tough’  ‘Just think about how worse off you could be’ ‘At least you’ve got your health/roof over your head/food in the cupboards’ ‘Insert any another phrase regarding how to face the day bravely‘   Well you know what? No, sometimes I don’t want to do any of the above. Sometimes I want to cry and scream and ask the world why it’s so damn unfair. I have, in the past, spoken many times about being ‘happy’ and how it is possible and you can change … Continue reading Sometimes I don’t want to smile, I just want to cry..and that’s totally okay.

Just one day at a time.

I will promote the importance of understanding mental health issues until it is no longer a taboo subject. I will happily stand up in front of people and tell them how I once found it so difficult to leave the house that my Dad had to literally pick me up and carry me in to the car. I know how it feels to have zero energy because you’ve not eaten for days but every time you put a spoonful of food near your mouth you are on the brink of being sick and it makes you cry. To me that … Continue reading Just one day at a time.

Coping, not cured.

      I have anxiety and PTSD. I have these things due to instances, events and traumas that have occurred during my life. They have caused parts of my brain to break and they might not ever knit back together properly. That’s okay though. I may never be ‘cured’ but I’m learning to cope. My light bulb moment came to me very recently, regarding how my life is just how it should be for now. I have known this before but it’s very difficult to accept it sometimes. You get angry and frustrated at things very easily because of … Continue reading Coping, not cured.

Mental illness and euthanasia – My thoughts

        If a dog is terminally ill we do the kindest thing and we have our dear friend put to sleep, the same goes for cats, guinea pigs, rats or even gerbils. We cannot bear to see them in pain and so we say our goodbyes and allow them to leave in peace. Why then do we have such a moral dilemma when it comes to our human loved ones? If a person is suffering so greatly that they no longer want to be here, shouldn’t it completely be their choice whether or not they live? This … Continue reading Mental illness and euthanasia – My thoughts

Just a few thoughts

Whilst I was driving the other day it occurred to me that if I thought about the process of driving then my brain becomes confused and I suddenly think I can’t do it. The operation of driving has become second nature to me and now it is all done on auto-pilot. The same goes for walking. If you are walking down the street and you start to think about how one foot goes in front of the other you can get confused and trip over your own feet. It’s all second nature and we don’t have to overthink these things … Continue reading Just a few thoughts

You can’t fake happiness

  I’m a big believer in positive thinking but it has to come from a healthy place. You can’t force yourself to be happy and you can’t fake it neither, you’re only going to make yourself ill if you live like this. You need to be aware of your everyday humany-wumany feelings . You’re allowed to be sad, angry, down, envious, upset. These are normal emotions, sometimes it’s just a matter of feeling them in a less volatile way. I’m not happy all of the time and anyone that is, is either full of s**t or are being drip fed … Continue reading You can’t fake happiness