Are you sure?

Not being able to trust my own thoughts is unsettling at best but when they are monumentally absurd then it can be terrifying. I have panic attacks on a regular basis and sometimes as a result of these panic attacks … Continue reading Are you sure?

Sorry, I’m busy

  Sorry, I’m busy… What does that mean to you? If I say “I’m busy” when someone asks me if I’m free for something it can mean several different things. I’m busy translates as ‘I have other plans’, ‘I’m out’… I’m working I’m going to the cinema I’m out for the day I’m at the gym I’m walking Going for a run Shopping Meal with friends Date night Time with my son These are all valid ‘I’m busy’ reasons. How about… I’m binge watching Netflix all day I’m having a bath I’m laying in bed all day, reading I’m turning … Continue reading Sorry, I’m busy

I may have just cured my anxiety…

      Okay listen up everyone, I may have made some sort of awesome scientific breakthrough… I have severe anxiety problems. I’m paranoid, stupid things scare me or make me panic, such as zombies, the dark, conversations I had 12 years ago, conversations I had 2 minutes ago, giving off the wrong impression, giving the right impression at the wrong time, worrying about missed opportunities, what the future might now hold. Pretty much everything really. So, my life is going along, dealing with anxiety in the only way I know; deep breaths, meditate, exercise (ha), deal with it. I’m … Continue reading I may have just cured my anxiety…

Just one day at a time.

I will promote the importance of understanding mental health issues until it is no longer a taboo subject. I will happily stand up in front of people and tell them how I once found it so difficult to leave the house that my Dad had to literally pick me up and carry me in to the car. I know how it feels to have zero energy because you’ve not eaten for days but every time you put a spoonful of food near your mouth you are on the brink of being sick and it makes you cry. To me that … Continue reading Just one day at a time.

Coping, not cured.

      I have anxiety and PTSD. I have these things due to instances, events and traumas that have occurred during my life. They have caused parts of my brain to break and they might not ever knit back together properly. That’s okay though. I may never be ‘cured’ but I’m learning to cope. My light bulb moment came to me very recently, regarding how my life is just how it should be for now. I have known this before but it’s very difficult to accept it sometimes. You get angry and frustrated at things very easily because of … Continue reading Coping, not cured.