This has not been easy to write, not only because it’s traumatic for me but also because I have struggled with how to put this into words. There are people who will read this who are my friends and family … Continue reading Why do we find it so difficult to say the word ‘rape’?
Okay listen up everyone, I may have made some sort of awesome scientific breakthrough… I have severe anxiety problems. I’m paranoid, stupid things scare me or make me panic, such as zombies, the dark, conversations I had 12 years ago, conversations I had 2 minutes ago, giving off the wrong impression, giving the right impression at the wrong time, worrying about missed opportunities, what the future might now hold. Pretty much everything really. So, my life is going along, dealing with anxiety in the only way I know; deep breaths, meditate, exercise (ha), deal with it. I’m … Continue reading I may have just cured my anxiety…
I’m tired. You’re tired. We’re all allowed to be tired. I’ve got responsibilities and jobs to do and so have you. My tiredness is no more relevant than yours and vice versa. It’s not a competition. I can’t explain how my tiredness makes me feel or precisely how tired I am. Just in the same way you can’t explain yours to me. I read somewhere recently that some people are of the belief that if you haven’t had kids then you don’t really know ‘tired’. I can’t comment because I am constantly knackered and I have had a child for … Continue reading How do you feel about that?
Sky diving, mountain climbing, base jumping. We are a planet of thrill seekers. Crazy, mad, thrill seeking, talking monkeys. We no longer have to run away from saber-tooth tigers and so our fight or flight response system is just sat around with nothing to do. In order to satisfy it we head out there looking for danger, new ways to get our adrenalin pumping. I get it, I really do. I wouldn’t class myself as an adrenalin junkie but I understand the need for adventure, the thrill seeking missions that we put ourselves on. I’ve been … Continue reading Thrill Seekers
‘Jack of all trades, Master of none’ This saying gives the impression that if you don’t just stick to one thing then you’re never going to be good at anything and I don’t like it. As a child I flitted … Continue reading Jack of all trades…
I want to do everything. That is my downfall. I want to read all of the books, watch all the films and I most definitely want to see all the places. I desperately want to visit the Pyramids, the deserts of Nevada, the Great Wall of China, The Himalayas, the ancient Incan Empire at Machu Picchu. It’s as though I have an invisible force inside me that pulls me towards everything and no it’s not gravity…well that’s there too but this isn’t that. It’s the uncontrollable human instinct. The explorer in Columbus, the inquisitive mind of Darwin, the … Continue reading Do you love your job?
The chair is still there, Empty and sad, like his heart Will his love return? Mum knows I like cake, Why is there no cake left now? My brother, damn him! Her dress of pure white, Yearning for this day to come. Soon she will be wed. The blood pulsed through, Dracula took his stance, The virgin now his. Don’t ever let anyone make you think you’re not good enough, follow your dreams right now! Don’t wait until tomorrow, next week, next year. Stop planning, start doing 🙂 Continue reading More Haikus!
Your face it fills me with such feeling, A dread that drills and drums, A shaking sweat, spills out, I’m kneeling Until my saviour comes. Your touch it terrifies me to tears, A horror that’s hell not healing, A fumbled fall that releases fears A nightmare still unreeling. I’ll sit and suffer, supressed by silence, Until the day I can escape this violence. Continue reading The only release…..