“Do you have a plan?”

    “I don’t even have a pla…”   I love making plans! In fact I love the planning more than the doing. I get excited about all of these wonderful things I’m going to do, then my anxiety kicks in and I freak out. Well it can sod off. I’m busy this year and anxiety can just kiss my ass. And yes I have made a plan of things for each month, judge me all you want, I don’t care. I’m a loser. Plans are exciting and they might not always work out the way you envisage and that … Continue reading “Do you have a plan?”

“Today is the first day…blah blah blah”

    “Seize the day” “What have you done today to make you feel proud?” I’m certain I’ve said these things before or at least very similar. I’m just being consistent and making sure I get my point across… 😉 or just being mildly irritating, take your pick. I just want to make you aware that you are in charge of your own destiny. It is not pre-determined. Your life is not planned, this isn’t the adjustment bureau. There is no set death day for you. If you flung yourself off of a building, chances are you’re going to die … Continue reading “Today is the first day…blah blah blah”

Northumberland Day Two

It just so happened that our weekend away fell on the same weekend as my boyfriend’s Mum’s birthday and she happened to be with us. It was therefore only fitting that we should eat cake… Let there be so much cake! The Corner House Cafe is most definitely the place you need to go for that much needed afternoon tea fix if you’re in the Berwick-Upon-Tweed area. The scones here are Mary-Berry-worthy and you get so much of everything! With scones, sandwiches, quiche and cakes there was too much for one sitting, so we had it packed up and took … Continue reading Northumberland Day Two

How do you feel about that?

  I’m tired. You’re tired. We’re all allowed to be tired. I’ve got responsibilities and jobs to do and so have you. My tiredness is no more relevant than yours and vice versa. It’s not a competition. I can’t explain how my tiredness makes me feel or precisely how tired I am. Just in the same way you can’t explain yours to me. I read somewhere recently that some people are of the belief that if you haven’t had kids then you don’t really know ‘tired’. I can’t comment because I am constantly knackered and I have had a child for … Continue reading How do you feel about that?

Sometimes I don’t want to smile, I just want to cry..and that’s totally okay.

    ‘Be brave’ ‘Take it like a woman’ ‘You’re strong, you can do this’ ‘Tough’  ‘Just think about how worse off you could be’ ‘At least you’ve got your health/roof over your head/food in the cupboards’ ‘Insert any another phrase regarding how to face the day bravely‘   Well you know what? No, sometimes I don’t want to do any of the above. Sometimes I want to cry and scream and ask the world why it’s so damn unfair. I have, in the past, spoken many times about being ‘happy’ and how it is possible and you can change … Continue reading Sometimes I don’t want to smile, I just want to cry..and that’s totally okay.

Is the meaning of life really 42?

      I’m sorry to disappoint you all but there is no meaning to our lives. There is no ultimate goal. We are here as a product of circumstance and coincidence. We weren’t placed here for a higher purpose or created for a deities pleasure. What reason would there be for that to happen? Why would someone go to all that trouble?   The best explanation for the meaning to life, the Universe and everything that I have ever been given is 42. When I first watched Hitch Hikers Guide it was just a funny thing I watched with … Continue reading Is the meaning of life really 42?

Just jump, don’t wait to be pushed

  I double dare you What is actually stopping you from doing that thing that you want to do? The big thing or the little thing. Do you want a promotion, a pay rise? Are you scared to send that text, email, make that phone call because you think the answer will be no? So what. It’s not the be all and end all is it? Life will still go on. Is it the rejection you fear?  In all honesty what is the worst that can happen? I spent a good part of my day today fretting over sending an … Continue reading Just jump, don’t wait to be pushed

Love at first sight?

      We all want to find ‘the one’, fall in love and live happily ever after. I’m a big fan of the kind of shows where people are looking for love. I always watched ‘Blind Date’, I am an avid fan of ‘First Dates’ and I’m glued to the TV for ‘Undateables’. I suppose I’m a true romantic at heart and quite a big softy. It’s a beautiful feeling to watch someone fall in love; with some people you just ‘know’. Whilst watching Undateables recently I was a little bit upset by what at first I felt was … Continue reading Love at first sight?

Make it a good dash

    The Dash – Written by Linda Ellis     I recently came across this poem by Linda Ellis and it made me think. It made me think about how my life will be remembered, how it will be represented or how anyone’s life is represented and remembered. On your gravestone it will read:                          In loving memory of                                     [Insert name here]                    … Continue reading Make it a good dash