Stop telling me what to do!

    I am so fed up of being told what to do, who to follow, how to raise your social following by 10,000 a day, how to lose 6 stone in an hour. “I went from being a total jobless, drug addict to earning £70,000 a day, overnight” Erm… no, you didn’t. I follow too many fake people on Facebook and it has started to stress me out. The amount of time I spend trawling through my news-feed to find some actual resemblance of my ‘real life’ is stupid. Everyone and their dog has suddenly become an expert in … Continue reading Stop telling me what to do!

Just jump, don’t wait to be pushed

  I double dare you What is actually stopping you from doing that thing that you want to do? The big thing or the little thing. Do you want a promotion, a pay rise? Are you scared to send that text, email, make that phone call because you think the answer will be no? So what. It’s not the be all and end all is it? Life will still go on. Is it the rejection you fear?  In all honesty what is the worst that can happen? I spent a good part of my day today fretting over sending an … Continue reading Just jump, don’t wait to be pushed

Just one day at a time.

I will promote the importance of understanding mental health issues until it is no longer a taboo subject. I will happily stand up in front of people and tell them how I once found it so difficult to leave the house that my Dad had to literally pick me up and carry me in to the car. I know how it feels to have zero energy because you’ve not eaten for days but every time you put a spoonful of food near your mouth you are on the brink of being sick and it makes you cry. To me that … Continue reading Just one day at a time.

Coping, not cured.

      I have anxiety and PTSD. I have these things due to instances, events and traumas that have occurred during my life. They have caused parts of my brain to break and they might not ever knit back together properly. That’s okay though. I may never be ‘cured’ but I’m learning to cope. My light bulb moment came to me very recently, regarding how my life is just how it should be for now. I have known this before but it’s very difficult to accept it sometimes. You get angry and frustrated at things very easily because of … Continue reading Coping, not cured.

Darkness – The all consuming

      The pain cuts through you without any warning sign. An invisible force has presented itself in front of you. You can’t see it but you sure as hell can feel it. There’s no way around it, through it or over it. It torments and taunts without even uttering a sound. You can feel its presence boring into your soul. It looms over you making you want to run and hide. If you hide from the world then nobody will know and then it won’t be real. If you keep quiet and don’t think about it then it’s … Continue reading Darkness – The all consuming

Does your teenager know the real value of money?

I spoke to my 13-year-old son the other day about learning the value of money. My Dad used to say this to me when I was younger every time I asked for some money for the shop and I always thought “Well, I know the value of money” whilst looking down in to my hand. “that one’s 10p, that one’s 50p, the shiny gold ones are worth £1 and the paper ones are the most valuable” His words were clearly lost on me. After many years and sleepless nights worrying about how I could budget my outgoings, I seem to, … Continue reading Does your teenager know the real value of money?